Some days I feel so redundant.
No....that wasn't a type-o...
I meant to put "I".
I feel redundant.
An extra person just taking up space.
My kids get everything done without me
(Cue heavenly angelic chorus)....
My husband has all the answers...
Someone invites us for dinner
(so I don't have to cook!)
and what they prepare is 40 thousand times better than what I can do....
And even though these above things may seem like a dream world
(in fact....they are!)
Sometimes I simply feel like I have nothing good to offer anyone.
This isn't a "I feel sorry for myself" kind of thing....
It's more of a "Why am I even around and bothering?" type of issue.
Have you ever felt like that?
You go to sign up for something and are told that it's been taken care of already.
You spend all day making a "here's how we're going to productively get our lives on track after school" plan and the kids end up going home with their friends/grandparents.
You finally offer to help someone with something and find out that other people have already stepped in.
Are you really all that needed?
Do you really have something to bring to the proverbial table?
Is it really worth bothering?
You have a gift.
I'm not talking about some sparkly present with a glittery bow...
But a talent.
A God given strength.
Do not neglect the gift that is in you.
1 Timothy 4:14
It is IN you.
God put it there when he knitted you together cell by cell back in your mother's womb.
YOU have a very special gift.
Neglect means: to give little attention or respect to, to disregard. To leave undone or unattended to especially through carelessness.
So we have to regard this talent.
Attend to this gift.
Respect this ability.
My pastor included a quote in our Bible study from a guy named John Courson.
Each us has been given gifts by the Spirit. But here's the problem: We spend far too much time trying to strengthen our weaknesses--only to find that in so doing, we weaken our strengths! Go where you're strong. If you are gifted as a worship leader, then lead worship. If you're gifted with kids, plug into children's ministry. If you're gifted in one-on-one situations, don't try to preach before thousands. Go with your strength, gang. Whatever God has called you to do, go for it with intensity and tenacity.
So maybe I'm not a fabulous cook.
Or I don't "go with the flow" on a busy after school day.
Perhaps I'm really not as good as I think I am with organizing life!
Stop trying to strengthen the weaknesses!
Do the best that can be done...
and then use the abilities God has given you.
The ability He has given me.
What is my special gift?
But I don't want to neglect it....
So I'm going to find it....
And see what God wants me to do with it.
It's findable, I think.
It's IN me....and surely I can search my own darn self.
Isn't it easier to see others gifts and talents sometimes though???
I can look at people and tell you,
"She's an awesome photographer!"
"He is such a great writer!"
"That lady is a fabulous teacher!"
"This guy is a phenomenal physician!"
Yeah...it's often not too hard to find all of the amazing abilities God has given the people around us.
But we need to Look Inward, as Jedi Master Yoda (I think??) said.
Lower your net into the water and allow God to help you discover your calling.
Let Him reveal your gifts.
We all have a gift.
The Bible tells us so!
So quit neglecting it.
Be grateful for it.
Stir it up....commit it to God....and